I'm a $53 idiot!

My mom just called me to let me know I have $53 in my bank account. Shit. (Yeah, my mom has my banking information, she checks it routinely and helps me manage my money. Yes I'm ashamed of this, but I'd be lying if I said she probably is the reason that I'm not homeless. I'm terrible with money.)

Anyway, $53 dollars, and a loooong way till payday. I'm fucked.

To be fair to myself, I really tried to be more thoughtful about my spending this time around; I thought I had more money then I did, but alas I forgot about a payment due to come out any second. I have nobody to blame but myself.

Seems as though living the dream has come at a hefty price tag, considering a large chunk of my money goes towards paying back the mountain of student debts I amassed . Since I only have a little over a year of being graduated under my belt, I'm still at the "entry level" of my career, which means the money is decent, but given what I have to pay back, it certainly isn't enough.

My Jeggings = muffin-top. I need new ones.

Still, I am one of the lucky ones I guess. I escaped a job and a future I didn't want, and I have a the opportunity to move upward and onward in the communications field. I can freelance, and I can take on a second or third job, which is my intention. Aside from a new opportunity coming up in the new year (which I'll tell you all about soon) I want to get another job at a place like Starbucks or something. (I've always romanticized working at Starbucks, everyone there seems happy, and I love coffee.)

I may as well work more, since I don't have the money to have the kind of social life I want right now anyway. (I don't even have the money to have cable right now, nevermind!)

Still, I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, even though I am, because I am a fiscal idiot... I don't even want to get into it. I'm a fiscal idiot who has $53 in her bank account!

Admittance of my fiscally inept ways aside, part of me is still like "Ohhh, I still have $53 in my bank account and I really want a new pair or leggings! Fifty-three-dollars is totally enough, SCORE!") New leggings, jeggings and skinny-legged black pants are on the top of my "Must Have" list. I have these beautiful boots that I want to wear every single day and I need pants that will tuck nicely into them without giving me the muffin-top that the current pair of jeggings I have do. I must refrain.

It appears that I am hopeless.