Friday, October 22, 2010

It hits you like a tonne of bricks, that suffocating feeling; you can't breathe. Your face begins to burn, triggering the rest of your body temperature to rise. Your head begins to ache and your heart pounds heavily. You feel as though you are going to be sick.

What just happened? -- Life seems to have slowed to a frame-by-frame picture. Suffering in slow motion.

The room is so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. Only the sound sound of a ticking clock and a settling house comfort you.

You try to catch your breath, but you can't. You lean up against a wall, put your burning face into your hands, and you cry. Helpless and vulnerable.

Those words, those awful words, have changed your entire life. Nothing even looks the same as it did a moment ago. Everything just got a little darker. A little scarier. A little more unfair.

Your heart aches. This is what love feels like.

You are trapped in the moment. The only thing you keep thinking of is that you wish there was more time. The life that you've been fine with living up until a few minutes ago, is now a race. You resent it. You need more time for the important things. More time for the things you take for granted. You just need more time.

1 comment:

  1. Those words are pretty emotional. You must be hurting pretty deeply right now. My thoughts are with you and I hope things get better soon.